I really couldn't say which is worst. Because in a way I have experience both, my father died when I was fourteen. Im not going to lie and say he was father of the year because he was far from it. There was many times were I wonder why did he even have kids. But when a person passes for some reason you begin to see all the good that indivual has done for you. This brief moment of realization didn't hit until I played the best football game of my career. I got home sat in my bed an was about to call him to brag like i usually did after I did good an remmebered he was no longer there. So IM stuck in the middle.